On Feb. 8, 2010, my 18 year old nephew was shot in the head. We do not know if he took his own life or if the gun went off accidentally. Although, a note was left and only stated, "Grandma and Grandpa I Love You and please never let my little girl forget me". We think he might have changed his mind and the gun went off. The gun was over 30 years old and was known for going off accidentally. My fun, caring, handsome nephew passed away on Feb. 12, 2010. This was the first death we experienced in over ten years for our family. My Mom was just thinking a few nights before how lucky our family was due to so many deaths in our community. Then on the evening of March 4, 2010 my loving, fun, soft-hearted love John took his own life. The Dr. pronounced him on March 5, 2010 at 1:10 a.m. I've asked myself why? I pray for some type of sign that they are both ok, to dream of them or anything, but nothing. The sadness and many tears cried seems that it will never get better.