My name is Sherry Gayton Im 44 years oldI am the mother of 3 children Scotty which was 24 Dillon who is now 20 His future wife Carly  and my heaven sent angel Cheyenne who is 6 (she is our life line gave us all three a reason to keep living) I have 2 grandson Phillip which is Scotty he is 5 months now and Blaine which is Dillon and Carlys little one and he is 2 weeks old I lost my husband  Talmadge on jan 5 2004 and it been 9 years and i'm still coping and greiving  We were a happy family we were married for 17 years And on Dec 5 20012  I lost my 24 year old son Scotty to suicide he had a 2 month old baby boy I dont know which way is up or down right now Scotty was my rock he is the one I depended on Scotty step up to the plate at 15 to fill his dads shoes Dont know what happen Scotty had everything going for him he  had work up to relleif manager and his boss told me he was going to become manager and run his own resturant this march Scotty was always happy and smiling two days before he past he told me it was going to be the best Christmas every cuz we had a part of his dad with us in his newborn son His boss said he was happy that day when he got off work And i dont know what went wrong. Now since I lost Scotty all I do is cry every day Im so stressed I am staying sick all the time I dont sleep cant eat No one understands what I'm going thur everyone says I have to suck it up and move on but its not that easy