It has been 8 months and 2 days since my mother passed away suddenly from a heart attack. I feel so alone. She was my everything. The one person on the face of this earth who knew and understood me completely. I could've never imagined life without her. Now I feel like I have to live the rest of my life without her. Too unbearable. I ache and long for her. I feel like people who haven't been where I am really don't understand. Some days it feels unreal. I want to talk to her; feel her; touch her and kiss her soft skin. I don't even feel like me anymore. Sometimes I just don't care about things in life. I never knew grief could be so powerful. I have so many weird feelings and emotions I can't explain. I know I'm at the point where I need help because sometimes I feel like I can't cope and want to be with her.