Tomorrow, June 11, is my birthday . . my first birthday since my Junior left me on June 20, 2009. He was admitted to the hospital for a 2-day stay on my birthday last year. I just cannot believe that he will not be here this year--just another 'first' for me without him! I feel so empty and lost at times...all day, every day! It just seemed that our future was going to be spent together, traveling, fishing, and enjoying each other!! He would be having a fit over the oil spill in the Gulf. We always went fishing in Gulf Shores, AL. We spent some beautiful, fun, memorable times there -- even during a hurricane!! smile He is my love and always will be. Thank God for blessing me with him and his love! (That is the only way I can survive . . memories of our time together, knowing that he loved me unconditionally, and thanking God for the time that we did have together!) He told me that he just wished that we had more years together - - amen to that!! It still hurts to know that I will not wake or go to bed to his kiss, his touch, his love. God bless each and every one of us who are experiencing grief for the loss of our loves!