Lost my husband of 37 years (1972) on Nov. 20, 2009.I loved him since I was 10 years old (55 now).He had a stroke in 1997 which affected his right side. Then another big one in 2007 which got his left side. From that time on he was in the bed. I tried to take care of him as much as possible and even learned to pick him up with a gaite belt to put him on the potty, etc. It was so hard to watch a young man slowly wilt away, but I am glad I was the one that went with him through it all. Now I don't know how to feel or what to do with myself. I was 17 when we married and I have never been alone. I feel so sad and I miss him.