If I can make one person feel better then that will help me get on with life. The reasons for suicide are endless the one thing it is not is YOU. I want to belive there is a reason some people just dont find our kind,loving world worth riding out everyday. I know that leaving the ones they love is the hardest part but the choice is to be "loved into staying" I know that having to deal with a lung dissorder lets be honest "cancer" isnt easy but I have to say I will live and die on my feelings not someone eles's. Remember the laughs, the friends, the trips and just talking all night and not realizing until the sun came up how tired you were. You dont need to be at a service if it makes anyone feel worse you have in your heart all the memories and stories that maby can just be yours. Having lost my father to cancer 18yrs ago. my 1st husband to alcohol 20 years ago and my dear Uncle to suicide last week. All I can say is hold them close to your heart and they never meant to hurt you. Its personal and flowers and poems are for thoses who dont have the memories we do.