Hi, I just joined today. I was looking for some kind of peace to the day I have had. It's been a little over 5 1/2 years since my daughter passed. She was only 8 days old, but we went through hell to keep her here. I re-lived those days today....again. I had her at full term, but a mid-wife on duty messed things up for us that day and for the 8 days to follow. Who knew a bad judgement call would affect my husband and I the way it has. I stay so angry and hurt, but mostly numb. I allow myself to love my miracle child now, but that's about it. Everyday she reminds me how much I love her and how much I miss my other daughter. One day I will be at peace with it, but I don't know how soon that day will come.