My Mom passed away on Sunday, December 7, 2008. My 43rd birthday was the day after this event, and also the last time I was to ever see her again. My Dad passed away when I was an infant and Mom rasied the four of us completely on her own. She's the only parent I've ever known. I live away from my family, alone, having just gotten divorced this year - and I'm just not sure how I can cope with Mom's death, especially at Christmas, which was her favorite holiday & time of the year. I have some friends, of course, but they too have their families. I guess I just didn't estimate how alone I was bound to feel. If I could just sleep until after the New Year... I miss my Mom so much. I feel guilty if I laugh a little. Nothing is the same anymore.