Just two days ago my mother was buried after a ten week illness. She entered hospital with a broken hip, and was suddenly diagnosed with an ischemic bowel that was inoperable. After ten harrowing weeks, most of which she spent incoherrent on huge doses of morphine she died. Now begins the unthinkable, living without her. The usual absences, her phone number has become obsolete, my family home is deserted and I have no clue how to deal with life without her. I would love to hear from members who know what this struggle and heartbreak is like.