Today was hard.  I made the mistake of reading that Jack Reacher novel- the one the movie was based on.  It was an author my brother would have loved and I kept thinking," I should tell him about this one." I kept thinking how he never read Unbreakable because I was supposed to send him the book and instead loaned it to someone else.  He was always such a tough guy.  He always loved tough guy books.  Louie Zamporini would have really thrilled him.  I wish I had gotten it to him right away like I planned.   Anything that was hard was his passion.

Over the years we've made a point to tell each other about good books, good hikes, great runs, the next newest best gear.  I've been crying on and off all day.  I can't imagine not being able to share this stuff with him anymore.  Our last conversation was about a really great trail run and he was being the tough guy like always and insisted he was going to do the hard one. This is so difficult.