I lost my little sister on April 21st 2012 unexpectedly.  My mother found her dead in her apartment, she was 19 years old.  On that Saturday morning i recieved a phone call from my younger brother telling me i need to go to mom she found her dead. I spent what seemed like enternity sobbing and screaming on my floor until my sister in law came to pick me up. All of my close immediate family rushed to her apartment and stayed while the police and coroner did their job.  We saw her come out in a body bag.  We are devasted and I was extremely close to her.  She was my best friend.  This has been extremely difficult and I am terrifed to be alone at my house.  I have this horrible anxiety feeling sometimes and i start breathing hard and cant sleep.  I just wonder where she is, if she is with me or if im going to look around the room and see her.  I feel like she is around me and i get so scared.  I dont know why im so scared.  I just wonder what shes doing, if she feels anything, if she can see us, if shes scared or happy or sad.  I hardly ever stay by myself and i was wondering if anyone else had these type of feelings.