It's been a year and a half since Larry left for work, left this world, left all of us he loved & loved him. It's still beyond painful. I haven't seen my stepson in 6 months as of May 1st. Larry's 40th birthday would have been April 15th. I have been surving many tears much like I did in the beginning, but honestly, there are only rare days when I feel as if I am really progressing. I miss him more than anyone outside this grp would ever imagine. He's gone, as I sd my stepson is now living with his mother & we barely stay in touch, my daughter & grandbaby have moved out also, leaving me & my 26 yr old son. Naturally he is gone as any healthy, single young man would be, so I am frequently alone. It's very strange after having a constant companion for over 7 yrs. I beg God to take me & spare me another day of existing. I enjoyed my life, but feel as if there is nothing for me here any longer. No, I'm not depressed. I get out, socialize with family, friends & church members... but life isn't what it should be- life should be shared with those we love.