After Lossing a couple of my family members I have had this craving to form new relaionships with more distant familly and work harder to develope more friendships. I am finding it seemingly impossible not to pull away when ever I start to get close. An example would be is I want to try to be closer to my grandparents, but when ever I am at their house I never leave my room, and decline invites to participate in familly activites. I am not really sure how to change this. I get overwhelmed by being arround people and trying to be close, but I feel like there is something missing when I isolate