Nothing can prepare you for the loss of someone you love dearly. I lost my Mother in 2003 and most recently lost my Father unexpectedly. He had moved in with my husband & I due to his health. He was sick but not to the point that we had any indication that he would be called to Heaven so soon.
On the day he passed away he had a dr appt at 1:40. I was the last person to speak to him at apprx 1:00. Around 1:30 I began to feel anxious as if something was wrong. Around 2:00 I texted my sister in law that I felt like I was having a panic attack. She walked me through the worst part but it never went away. Around 2:30 I started calling my Dad, he wasn't answering so I assumed he was in his appt. I continued to call every 10 minutes or so. My husband gets off work at 4:00 and his office was near the dr office so I asked him to drive thru the parking lot and see if my Dads truck was there & if it was could he go and check on him since I was unable to leave work. He called to tell me my Dad wasn't there, so I called the neighbor she checked to see if my Dad had made it home. I decided to contact the dr office, they advised that my Dad had been there & had checked out but refused to give me any times. In the meantime my husband went home & my still hadn't made it home. For whatever reason I called the local hospital ER and he was there. I was transferred to several people who wouldn't answer any of my questions, I was beginning to become hysterical. A man finally came to the phone he explained that he was the medical examiner and that my Father was there. I knew then that my Father had passed away. I miss him so much. I know we shouldn't question God he has a plan for all of us but, I wasn't ready to say goodbye. Now the grief is beyond anything that I could imagine so much different from when I lost my Mom. Maybe because she was sick for 3 years and we knew that he illness would take her. I feel lost and alone and orphaned. I can't imagine not having parents especially my Dad. He was a great man. I will carry on his legacy by loving my family like he loved us. Unconditionally.