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Comment by daphne holtz on December 19, 2010 at 3:18pm

Dearest Robin;

I am sorry to hear that you lost your beauitful son Curtis! And yes it is untimely and unexpected,I have so many questions for God, and i know that I will have to wait. I am so saddened when I hear of the young men that are leaving this earth to go home and be with God, I know the pain and I understand the sorrow, but i have to remind myself that God does as well, and there is no pain the He can't heal, and I continue to look for God's hand through this journey. I know that your Curtis and my Jared live on forever in Christ Jesus.I have had times when i thought that i would go mad, because it hurts so much and I know that this is true for you as well.I know how you feel when you say that you are not able to hold and or hug him and tell him that you love him.How have you been holding up during the holidays? I will be praying for you and your family that God will grant us grace and mercy to get through this time. When our loved ones are not here with us.God bless you and thanks for writing.Jared's Mom Forever Daphne

p.s. My Jared was 19, What about the person that took Curtis's life?

Comment by daphne holtz on December 19, 2010 at 3:18pm

Dearest Robin;

I am sorry to hear that you lost your beauitful son Curtis! And yes it is untimely and unexpected,I have so many questions for God, and i know that I will have to wait. I am so saddened when I hear of the young men that are leaving this earth to go home and be with God, I know the pain and I understand the sorrow, but i have to remind myself that God does as well, and there is no pain the He can't heal, and I continue to look for God's hand through this journey. I know that your Curtis and my Jared live on forever in Christ Jesus.I have had times when i thought that i would go mad, because it hurts so much and I know that this is true for you as well.I know how you feel when you say that you are not able to hold and or hug him and tell him that you love him.How have you been holding up during the holidays? I will be praying for you and your family that God will grant us grace and mercy to get through this time. When our loved ones are not here with us.God bless you and thanks for writing.Jared's Mom Forever Daphne

p.s. My Jared was 19, What about the person that took Curtis's life?

Comment by Robin on December 19, 2010 at 12:23pm

Sorry about your lost Daphne. I hope you are healing. My son Curtis was murdered on Sept 8 2009 and I know how it feels to lose the very one you conceived only to have their life interrupted so abrutly untiimely and unbeknowing to us who have to grieve and be reminded constantly of their tragic death.  I am also a Christian and I know that my son is not suffering any longer but its the loss of not being able to hold him hug him tell him I love him that hurts the most. Curtis was 22 and to me that is the beginning of a life. So Daphne please take care of yourself and may God continue watching over you and your family. Robin

Comment by daphne holtz on November 10, 2010 at 4:39pm

To all of my loved ones here, First, I would that we were all in good health and moving forward in the journey. I just want to encourage each and everyone of you here today to take time for yourself to feel, to laugh to cry, to be angry and to feel like you want to die because the pain is so great. But you will not die you will live because of your purpose and because that is what our loved ones desire for us to live and not die. Not, yet! Because it is not your time. There is in fact a greater purpose for all of us here we may or may not know it yet, but there is and when you move into that purpose you will know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are where you are suppose to be and that you are doing what you are suppose to be doing! It sounds crazy i know but there is always a purpose for everything that happens under the sun. Take care and wait for it! (your purpose)continue the journey no matter how hard it gets and no matter how long it takes, it's your journey! and no two are alike there are simular facets,but only you can do your journey there will be others along the way some will remain and some will fall by the way side, but no matter what continue one.I love each and everyone of you and i am praying for all of us to continue because in my heart i know there is light at the end of all of this.
Love Daphne
Jared's Mom Forever

Comment by Janie on February 12, 2010 at 9:11pm

Dear Daphne, my name is Janie, from Wisconsin. I'm sure Jared is looking down, with the rest of our children, and asking Our Lord, to take care of their moms and dads. Not only did our kids go on a journey, but we too are and will be until our day comes to passing. I only knew about 2 weeks
before my son Rich, died. that was Jan 9 2008. The look in his eyes told me he was starting to make his peace, it was a hard road for him but in the end God took him peacefully. Its still hard, just when I think I've crossed
over to the healing side, I seem to start feeling the deeper pain in my heart
again. Then reading all of the tradgies on this site, I find it hard to believe
that so many are hurting because of the loss of our children. I never realized our world was so overcome with pain, anger, and mostly the faith
in God. My faith has become so much greater since the day Rich left me,
its kind of a mircle. Like God would have said, I'm taking Rich to get you
back . It worked. I just can't pray enough. Believe me I'm not perfect in
any way, but I do believe in God. He is the only One that will hold my hand
and walk this journey with me. Daphne, my prayers are with you and all the
others. You're just starting on your roller coaster ride. I hope that you will
continue to get the comfort God is trying to give you. Its not easy.
Love to you and hugs,
New Friend, Janie