The people on this site are great u guys all understand and never take it too far. But I am starting to get angry and people who have no idea what it feels like to live like this. The gifts that they bring with her colors or they just keep saying I dont know what to say but here. It happens when I at work...being at work is supposed to be a few hours away from reality of this situation. I need a break from wallowing...just laying in my bed hour after hour cuz I dont want to face the day with out my daughter. When u try to tell them nicely then I mean....if I dont say something then I back to square one and dont wanna stay at work cuz it is in my face. My problem is I am a blackjack dealer and I see tons of people while at work. They are there to have fun....and escape their lives. Give me a break....it is not the strangers as much as the people who know me well and has said the same things over and over again from the moment it happened. I know the media keeps things going but have a heart. Its two months and I need to get some stability in my life cuz I have court hearing after court hearing after court hearing -- year after year after year----my situation is going to drag its ass for ever and I need to find that stability before I end up in the loony bin.