I lost my mum in jan 2012 and each month on the 21st i do not feel myself. I keep getting flashbacks to that day that my mum passed away.

I am coming up to the 21st again and know what way i am going to be but can anyone advise me when they are going to become any easier for me.

I know Birthdays and Anniversaries are hard for me to but this is nothing compared to this. I dread the date coming each month because it is always another month that my mum is gone and on the inside i am in bits but on the outside i have to keep going the pain inside hurts all the time.