I lost my husband to a massive stroke in March. He had complained of a bad headache but didn't want to go to the doctor. This went on for 5 days until one night he had a stroke. I was supposed to take care of him. It's my fault he's gone. I've made him go to the doctor before. Why didn't I this time. I cry every night in bed and when I wake for a few seconds I think it was just a dream then reality hits and I cry some more.