On my Birthday, January 18, 2008 I lost my husband to A.L.S. A great husband, father, son and friend. And if that wasn't hard enough 3 days later on the day he was layed out at the funeral home, walking in to the funeral home my Mom fell to the floor and had a massive heart attack and died. I cannot express the horror that myself and my family felt that day and still feel. I have managed somhow to go on with my life and have been in a relationship for 2 years. The grief still comes and goes very randomly, this Christmas was especially hard for me, my son and daughter. I really don't know how to celebrate my birthday anymore. It doesn't feel right to celebrate on the day I lost my husband, the thought of it coming up is so hard. Does anyone have any advise??