my wife was killed 4/5/2010 in car accident.i had my wife for 28 years . the reality when your go out alone and come home to empty house is more than i can handle .i should not say empty house because she left me the cats and dogs and horses but without her there it's not the same . i miss her more than i can explain or describe . i wish i could say something that would help others in my situation because i know the key to helping self is helping others but i am too tied up praying for help for myself . i have a lot to be thankful for and i know God has already helped me a lot and i know i must start helping others and stop feeling sorry for myself but the reality is i can't do it right now . i am selling or renting whichever happens first my house and moving away which financially is a mistake . also moving my business which is financially another mistake but i simply cannot stay where i am because my primary motivation for everything was my wife and now she is gone . i am like a ship lost at sea in need of a lighthouse to point me to a new home because without my wife i currently have no home only a house full of memories i cannot bear to think about .