lost my husband on April 1st. He passed away as I was trying to get him to the hospital. He was my best friend, soul mate and love of my life, I had ben married before and divorced. When I met my husband and was so happy at finding love at last. We only had 12 years together and he was only 49. My kids are grown and this is the first time in my life that I am all alone. I am trying to make it through day, but find it so hard to come home to an empty house. I don't know if my heart will ever heal.