l recently lost my 14 year old Granddaughter. She was hit by a car on her way to school. Two days later I lost my Husband to cancer. He was told he had cancer on the 21st of Aug. and died the 3d of Sept. I can't think or move. I am trying to raise funds for my Husbands cremation. and I'm so tired of telling my story and asking for help. I hadn't seen my granddaughter in years because of a bad break up between my daughter and her ex. He kept my grandchildren hidden most of the time. I feel guilt for not trying harder to find them. My daughter found her daughters obituary when she went online to post my Husbands obituary. No one contacted us and her name (my daughter) was not listed as this child mother, her step-mother was. We are devastated. I don't know what to do next, It feels so unreal, I am so confused, I just can't except all this. I don't want to believe this is happening. I wake up every morning and go on like there is nothing wrong because I don't know what else to do. My daughter has gone to bed sick from all this and I'm taking care of her youngest child. He is 9 years old and is autistic. He does not understand whats happening and honestly I don't either. The people I thought I could rely on are suddenly unavailable. I need advice