Hi my name is Debbie. My husband and I got together in 1989. We lived together for years, then along came my sweet boy Scott, he was born in 1994. We then decided to get married on July 15, 2000. Lived a happy life, then in 2003, along came my baby girl Amanda. Like every marriage there was ups and downs. We decided best to seperate. We still remained the best of friends, and best friends at that and always had the kids come first.
One day on June 29,2014, his girlfriend called me to come and check on him as she was worried, well I called and called while on my way, and something told me to take my cell phone into the house with me, and I did, and unfortunately I had to make that dreadful phone call. My husband had committed suicide and it was with his archery bow, was loaded like a trigger on a gun. My worst ever nightmare was right infront of my eyes.
He left 2 amazing kids who are now older but still live with me. I am left with the what if, and well If I had of.........I have joined therapy and several other groups that have been very helpful, for me to realize I am not in this alone. Yes I do say what if, as he had asked for his family back and I have come to realize now, if he wasnt now it would have been another time. I am learning it is a sickness. and I thank you for your time, and patience, and thoughts here.