Lost my mom and then my boyfriend 17 days later to suicide.

Hi everyone.  

I have read many of your stories and am amazed at the strength many of you have despite your losses.  Some of your stories are so tragic and my heart grieves for you as well.  My mom had Alzheimer's and she was diagnosed with colon cancer early last year; March.  All of a sudden it came back, late June and she passed on July 4th.  I did have time to say goodbye and am so grateful for those final moments.  My boyfriend attended a memorial we held for her at the beach and read a poem for me.  My boyfriend struggled his whole adult life with schizoaffective disorder, major depression, and aspergers.  He was very talented, sweet, and always there for anyone who needed help.  Well just this Monday he killed himself by jumping off a bridge and I am so devastated.  I am still in shock and cry several times a day or whenever I talk about him.  Time will heal, I know, but this is so hard.  I understand why, he was suffering, I don't blame him at all, he is no longer hurting.  His sister is also devastated because they lost their older brother suddenly in November.  My 11 year-old-son does not know.  He could barely handle my mother's funeral and I just don't think he will be able to handle this.  I can barely handle it.  Anyway, that is my story.  I just need to know it will get better with time because it hurts so bad right now.  Thank you for listening and for all those who have shared their stories as well.

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Comment by Lore DeLaire on July 24, 2014 at 9:53am

We spent every special event together.  Trick-or-treating with Rogan, Thanksgiving, the lighting of the Christmas tree, Christmas Eve and Christmas, ,many nights watching movies or playing Wii bowling.  Those are the happy times.  He had a great laugh.  I will always remember his amazing guitar skills and what a great artist he was.  Thank you David, for your comment.  

Comment by David, BERNIE's dad on July 24, 2014 at 8:48am

You've had a rough time, Lore. But the Good Lord doesn't give us more than we can bear. It will get less sharp, less hurtful, when hopefully, memories of the happy days will be stronger than the sad. Spend a lot of time with your son, post more pics and tell us more stories. Be brave and strong!

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