I have read many of your stories and am amazed at the strength many of you have despite your losses. Some of your stories are so tragic and my heart grieves for you as well. My mom had Alzheimer's and she was diagnosed with colon cancer early last year; March. All of a sudden it came back, late June and she passed on July 4th. I did have time to say goodbye and am so grateful for those final moments. My boyfriend attended a memorial we held for her at the beach and read a poem for me. My boyfriend struggled his whole adult life with schizoaffective disorder, major depression, and aspergers. He was very talented, sweet, and always there for anyone who needed help. Well just this Monday he killed himself by jumping off a bridge and I am so devastated. I am still in shock and cry several times a day or whenever I talk about him. Time will heal, I know, but this is so hard. I understand why, he was suffering, I don't blame him at all, he is no longer hurting. His sister is also devastated because they lost their older brother suddenly in November. My 11 year-old-son does not know. He could barely handle my mother's funeral and I just don't think he will be able to handle this. I can barely handle it. Anyway, that is my story. I just need to know it will get better with time because it hurts so bad right now. Thank you for listening and for all those who have shared their stories as well.