Well, Amy, here I am again, going thru another Mothers' day without you here. I miss your cards that you would pick out for me after reading a hundred of them. Your phone call, your face with that smile that lights up a room and makes others smile when they see you.

Dad is having a hard time lately and some days he scares me. He doesnt want to go on at times with all the crap going on but you not being here is the worst.

We still dont understand how or why you are not here. What went wrong, we still want to blame someone or something. How did things get so out of hand and why werent the right steps taken? How could this happen to such a happy beautiful woman with so much to live for? We will never know and by the time we get to meet again, it wont matter.

We just hope you are watching down on us all and please guide us or get grandpa to help you, cause we sure do need it. Kiss the babies while they sleep and watch over my dad, for soon he will be with you and meet you at the gate. We are not looking forward to that day either, but at least he will have lived a long life, he is 87 now. Your short 21 sucks.

Your birthday will be next week two days before dads, on the 15th, and if you celebrate in Heaven, blow out a candle for dad too.

We will most likely stop at what we call Amy's house when we talk to Cece, and put some roses. Roses that should be seen in person by you, but that is not to be.

Well, its late and sunday is mothers day, and I just want it over with. We will call our moms who also know it is hard on us at this time. it used to be such a special day and now its a sad day. We have not healed much in the last 3 yrs and it will take much longer the way things are going.

Please know we love and  miss  you so much forever and ever. Kisses and hugs are being sent your way.

Send those butterflies and dragonflies as signs you see us.

xxxxxxxoooooooo

mom and dad