My angel Micaela Costanzo murdered on March 3, 2011 by a school friend. Fast forward thru the arrest...drama...heartache of two months.  May 3, 2011 Mickie's bday...planning on celebrating her with school mates at the "track" at the high school; just minutes prior to doing that...WHAM!  There is a second person his fiancee arrested in connection with murder.  I must hold it together to do the "party" and then find out whats going on.  The next day media, media, media....before I can even call the DA to see whats what.  Interview, kids at school upset all over again, calling, calling calling.  It brings back the very first moments and feeling when she was missing.  Fast forward to May 10th and trying to design her headstone/monument and BOOOMMMM! Media, Media, Media, phone calls upon phone calls.....more info on the fiancee and her involvement in planning the murder with her boyfriend.  Now add Mothers Day, family birthdays and on and on and on within days.

How is a person supposed to try and deal with the tragedy when you get blindsided by more and more...how do you keep your sanity. How is it fair that it takes seconds to minutes to end a beautiful girls life and years and years to bring justice to  her name and to her family.

I am a single parent/divorced I need an income cuz this stuff isnt cheap....when u continually get hit with it how to do get strong enuf to work to live.  I cant even do laundry or clean my house....but trying to work is a nearly impossible task.  I might manage between 16-20 hours a week in...I cant live on that or support my other daughter but I cant seem to get thru more than that again.

Will there come a time of peace or is it a mess for the years to come?