I can't believe it will be four month soon since my big brother Paul end his life. Does it get easier. I still cry. I just wish he was here. I wish he would be here when and if I found someone to marry so he could walk me down the aisle but it not going to happen. I am still in a fog life goes on each day but it will never be the same without my big bro. Paul you are missed and loved so dearly everyday