IT HAS NOW BEEN 1 MONTH AND 1 DAY SINCE MY HUSBAND DIED DUE TO HANGING HIMSELF IN OUR BEDROOM. HE DID THIS ON 08/24/2011 AND I GOT TO COME HOME TO FIND HIM I CUT HIM DOWN AND STARTED CPR IMMEDIATLY AS MY CHILDREN WATCHED I BRAUGHT HIM BACK BUT I REALIZED 4 WEEKS LATER IT WAS TO LATE AND HE WOULD NEVER COME BACK TO US TO MUCH BRAIN DAMAGE, I THEN TOOK HIM OFF LIFE SUPPORT AND HE PASSED ON 09/26/2011 3 DAYS BEFORE OUR 4TH ANNIVERSARY, WE HAVE TWO CHILDREN AGES ALMOST 4 OUR DAUGHTER  AND OUR 12YR OLD SON. WE DO GO TO THERAPY AND I HAVE RETURNED TO WORK TO TRY TO KEEP THIS FAMILY GOING SOME DAYS ARE EASIER BUT THEY ARE STILL SO PAINFUL. AND NOW I AM HAVING SOME SMALL ISSUES WITH THE OTHER FAMILY (AS THEY CALL THEMSELVES). I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO SURVIVE THIS. THE OTHER DAY I HAD THE SAME FEELING AS HIM AND THAT I DIDNT WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE AND FACE ALL THE PAIN AND HURT THATS COMES WITH ALL THIS BUT I DID CALL A FRIEND AND ASKED HER TO COME BE WITH ME AND SHE DID. BUT NOW I KINDA SEEN WHY MY HUSBAND DID DO WHAT HE DID, I HAVE NEVER FELT A FEELING LIKE THIS IN MY LIFE. I MISS HIM SOOOOOO MUCH AND I ACHE FOR MY KIDS HURTING SO BAD ESPICIALLY WITH MY DAUGHTER BECAUSE ALL SHE SAYS IS THAT SHE WANTS HER DADDY AND HE WONT COME HOME TO HER. I AM TRYING REALLY HARD EVERYDAY BUT AT THIS POINT I DONT SEE ANY LIGHT IN OUR FUTURE AND IM PRETTY SCARED. THANKS TO ALL WHO HAVE LISTEN AND I WILL TAKE ANY ADVICE PEOPLE GIVE. I LOVE YOU JUSTIN AND MISS YOU SO MUCH...