"Living" with chronic, excruciating pain, the only way I exist is through massive pain killers, which in themselves, create intolerable pain elsewhere. Only when I'm extremely sedated can I find relief. When I think it can't possibly get any worse, it does..Always. I exist solely for my wife. Yet, I am very aware of the burden I am to her, either way. Mine is not a temporary situation. I don't have the blues and I'm not looking for pity or attention. I just want it all to stop.