I lost my boyfriend on April 29, 2013. I was in the hospital  because I was told that I had congested heart failure. I was in the hospital at KU FOR 13 DAYS UNTIL I was discharged and sent to medical lodge for the rest of the month to get better. I would like to tell you a little about my loveable boyfriend that passed away of a massive  heart attack in our apartment.. PAUL  & I  were together for nineteen beautiful years. We were never apart while were were dating for 19 years. Paul was a kind loveable man that took good care of me while I was sick. we have stayed in different places together. in our relationship. He was a kind and gentle man. He loved me so much with all of his heart. Paul called to get me help when I had congested heart failure. I was in KU ER for ten hours. I didn't know it at the time, but he was also sick but he wouldn't get help for himself. He & I  went out to restaurants and movies. He bought me gifts for Christmas & for my birthday. I know it's only been about five months since he passed. I wait for him to come home to me, I  also wait on his phone calls. He was the most gentle person I know. My birthday is inn JANUARY. Ah is in November. This thanksgiving is going to be really hard for me. I miss him so much. I FIND myself crying over him not being here. I loved him so much. I am feeling very lonely without him. My family thinks that I shouldn't grief over him. I am hoping that I  could talk to some friends that I  can find comfort in. who knows what I  am going through. I feel so lost without PAUL. I didn't have enough money to bury him., so the people at frontier forensics cremated him. I can't even have his ashes. I am very hurt about the loss of my beloved boyfriend of mine. I Don't what do with my life without him. I  have never meet  a man that was so much in love with me before. Paul was kind. He graduated at Park UNIVERSITY, he got his diploma There are so many places around town that both of us been, that remind me of him. .I  dream about him all of the time. MY  heart is so empty without him. I  don't know how my heart can take this loss. His name is Paul D,Culbertson. HE was very smart that knew about computers.