My one and only best friend my mama

Well I just found this website as I'm trying to find maybe other people going through the same thing I am and trying to figure out how to make this easier for me. I find myself trying to go through everyday life and find myself not doing very good.
So 2 weeks ago I couldn't get ahold of my mama all day so I got off work and went to her house as I started worrying about her. So I got there and knocked on the door rang the door bell and still nothing so I went around the house and looked in her bedroom window seeing her she looked like she was peacefully sleeping in her bed which was at 8:38 pm so I knocked on the window and still nothing so I ended up breaking in the back door and I found her. It was by far the worse thing I have ever went through. So we got through her funeral which was beautiful and now I am still not doing good and still keep seeing in my head how I find her. She had been there the whole day so when I found her she didn't look good at all so that's all I have in my head. And I don't know how to get that out of my head and just remember her for the loving fun person she was and I just want to remember her beautiful face before I find her that night. So anyone that can help or has been through something and has any ideas on how I can deal with this better would be great
Thank you for listening
Kayla

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Comment by Kayla on December 11, 2012 at 9:14am
It sounds like he was a very funny guy we need more people like that I do like ur page that gods garden was on my moms program that I picked out for her
Comment by David, BERNIE's dad on December 11, 2012 at 9:10am

Welcome to enjoy his pictures on my page (click on my name where it is underlined), along with many of the flowers from his little memorial garden. When the tears come, I consciously try to think of his jokes and happy times, only.

 

Comment by Kayla on December 11, 2012 at 9:05am
Thank u so much David I will for sure how to try that. I hope this pain starts getting easier she was my best friend my everything and wish I could get that image out of my mind and just remember her. Thanks again
Comment by David, BERNIE's dad on December 11, 2012 at 8:48am

At the end my 45 yer old son was not looking that good either. It has been thanks to looking through every photo I can find, and concentrating on the nice older ones, (I have posted these on the site, and don't look too often at the hospital pics) that I managed to replace the ongoing mental picture I have of him. I just posted two older ones yesterday, and it helps.

Best wishes,

David.

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