I lost my husband of 50 years quite unexpectedly almost 2 yrs ago. We had retired and lived 1200 miles from our nearest children. I have taken care of all I needed to. I came to stay with my kids and their families (3 kids 8 grandkids with another one due any minute) on a temporary basis. I just thought I would be further along emotionally. Still have deep sadness and loss ! I have decided to sell our retirement place and move near my sons and their families. This means a new place to live, new friends to make and basically starting a new life for myself. And it is scary!!!