On April 18, 2013 at 3:42AM.....She simply stopped breathing. We had been together for 27 years and had known each other for over forty years. Though that may sound like a very long time - it wasn't long enough. We were not through with our life together. She had Lung Cancer and she didn't seem to be suffering but how was I to tell. She was so cavalier. Never wanting to admit she was ever sick.
When she passed away we had just been moved to an assisted living facility. I was asleep when she died and I will never forgive myself for that. I so wanted to hold her hand and kiss her before she died. Be there as she took that last long step into the unknown.........to Heaven.
I want to scream to the heavens, to God to send her back. I try to feel her here beside me, to know her warmth once again. But she's simply - gone. For all those years we spent 24 hours a day together and while I am so grateful to have had that time, I can't see living the rest of my life without her. She wrote me a letter in the year before she died and told me that everything would be fine; for me to always be happy. I just can't. She was my happiness. Everything I lived for and now everything I long for. She was and is my sweet Angel......and I miss her so very much.