Well babe, we've almost made it to the six month mark. I can't believe its almost been half a year! These past few days have been tough, but i've noticed your signs.... And I know your still here for me. I'm not sure how long the pain lasts, it may never stop... But I do have good days, and lots of happy memories. I ran across the worldcup bracket the other day, while I was packing... Didnt realize that just a little piece of paper could hurt me that bad :( I remember talking shit to you, when your team was losing, and mine was always winning ;-) At least I have three more years before I have to worry about getting over that milestone.. Its still tough trying to get through the 9:00 hour, knowing my phone isnt gonna ring. And sleep isnt exactly an easy task, either. I thought for sure it would be easier by now, but then again next Tuesday is a dark day... And maybe just its approach is taking me back, ill push through. You know i'm strong, even though I feel so weak right now. Im so lost, and not sure what my next move is suposed to be. I'm gonna keep praying, and keep seeking strenght from God. He hasn't let me down yet!!!
On a lighter note your moms doing well, I really enjoy mine and her talks. Shes so excited about the house being rebuilt, and I really hope its what you wanted her to do. Ill never leave her side, I promise you that. Morgan and Michael are growing like weeds, like most kids do. I can't believe my baby is gonna be 5 soon. Morgan will start soccer soon, wish you could be here to help me couch... She'd love that, but I know youll never miss a game :) They just keep amazing me Howie, even with everythig that I am going through... They have just been amazing little troopers!
Well babe, gotta go for now :( Ill talk to you again soon, dont forget to check in on me from time to time... Ill be seeing you soon! Love ya!!
Signed: Ms Marshmellow woman ;-)