Hello, my name is Mandy and I lost my husband, Officer Ryan Baird on October 7, 2013 to a fatal car accident.  He recently celebrated his 38^th birthday 11 days prior to the incident.  I was shocked, in denial and beyond consolable when the officers came to my door that night to announce his death.  My children were upstairs screaming including our youngest Lundon who is 2yrs old.  I’ve felt my world was caving in on me and for the first two weeks I was an emotional wreck.  Leading up to his funeral I had to pull myself together for my kids’ sake in order to keep them calm and sane.  This is a huge devastation to my kids and I that no words can express how I feel.  My husband was my best friend, soul mate and love whom I will forever miss.  I am trying my best day by day to deal with his sudden death, which some days are better than others.  I have relied on my faith in God, constant scriptures in the bible for healing and the support from my family and friends.