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Comment by Jan on October 20, 2012 at 7:51pm

Hi Marie,

Wow 43 years is along time.  I was married 17 years and together 25.  I did something different this week. I went to a sewing class(private). It was nice to talk to a adult LOL, someone my age. I had a great time. I know my husband would have been so proud of me. I hope to take some more too. I do not work, I am agoraphobic , which means fear of everythhing and I don't like to leave my house.  So going out last week was a big step for me.  Because I am agoraphobic , I don't have any friends. I am blessed with 6 grown girls and 8 grandchildren.  So I basically stay in most of the time and do alot of crafts. Well enought about me and it was nice to get some feed back. Hope to hear from you again.

Much care,

Jan

 

Comment by Marie on October 18, 2012 at 3:08pm

It has been 26 months since I lost my husband.  I too have retired from life.  Everyday is an effort for me and I do not see a future.  We were together so much in our life, together for 43 years.  He could light up a room just by walking in.  He was loved by everyone and we just had a good time together.  We used to joke that sometimes we had a big piece of cheese and sometimes we had the crumbs but we were together.  I tried to go on vacation this summer but the thought of stepping onto a beach without his hand holding mine was too much for me.  I could not go so I stayed home for that week and felt more at peace being in our home.  I go to work everyday and just cannot wait until I am home again.  It's like I lock the front door in the morning and just mark the time until I can put that key back in at night.  The silence is deafing and I do know exactly how you feel.