MY NAME IS NANCY CLEMENTS DOAK,I HAVE RECENTLY BECOME A MEMBER OF THIS GROUP THAT NONE OF US WANT TO BE A PART OF, EVEN THOUGH IT IS WONDERFUL TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO THAT UNDERSTANDS. MY SON ROBERT EUGENE "GENE" CLEMENTS WAS TAKEN FROM US SO SUDDENLY AND IN A HORRIFIC ACCIDENT ON OCTOBER 21, 2010. A LITTLE OVER 3 MONTHS AGO. SOMETIMES IT SEEMS AS IF IT WERE ONLY SECONDS AGO THAT I RECEIVED THE CALL. WE LIVE IN ALABAMA, AND GENE DROVE AN 18 WHEELER FOR ABOUT 10-12 YEARS. HE DROVE FOR GEORGIA PACIFIC  FOR ABOUT 10 YRS. AND HAD JUST STARTED DRIVING OVER THE ROAD FOR A LOCAL CO. ABOUT 3  MONTHS PRIOR TO HIS ACCIDENT. GENE WAS 38 YRS OLD, MARRIED FOR THE 1ST TIME AT 32, NO CHILDREN. HIS DAD DIED IN 1985 WITH LEUKEMIA, AFTER A BONE MARROW TRANSPLANT IN SEATTLE WA. I STILL THINK OF THIS AS A HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE, AND I AM GOING TO WAKE UP ANY TIME... I CAN'T MAKE MYSELF ACCEPT THIS, I AM A NURSE AND KNOW ALL ABOUT THE GREIVING PROCESS IN THE BOOKS, BUT IN LIFE IT IS SO VERY DIFFERENT.I HAVE LOST 2 HUSBANDS TO CANCER, MY MOM WHEN I WAS 5 YRS. OLD, MY BROTHER AND SOOOOOOO MANY MORE CLOSE FAMILY MEMBERS, BUT THIS ONE IS ABOUT TO TAKE ME DOWN. THIS IS MY BABY, MY SON. I HAVE 2 OTHER CHILDREN, OLDER SON AND YOUNGER DAUGHTER, ALSO WONDERFUL UNDERSTANDING, VERY SUPPORTIVE HUSBAND, 4 GRANDCHILDREN AND 1 GREAT GRANDDAUGHTER.I KNOW I AM BLESSED BUT I WANT MY SON BACK, IT IS SO UNFAIR. HE WAS A WONDERFUL, CARING, LOVING MAN WHO GAVE SO MUCH TO OTHERS AND ALWAYS THERE TO LEND A HELPING HAND. HE WOULD GIVE THE SHIRT OFF HIS BACK AND HIS LAST DOLLAR TO SOMEONE IN NEED. HE DID A LOT OF CHARITY WORK. LAST MEMORIAL DAY HE STARTED A DUCK RACE AT TANNEHILL STATE PARK FOR CHILDRENS HOSPITAL IN BIRMINGHAM TO RAISE MONEY FOR CHILDREN WITH CANCER,WHICH WAS GOING TO BE A YEARLY EVENT, WAS ON THE NATIONAL BONE MARROW REGISTRY AND ORGANIZED AND WAS INVOLVED IN MANY BIKE RIDES AND FUND RAISERS FOR CHILDREN WITH MANY DIFFERENT NEEDS.WHY DOES GOD TAKE THE GOOD ONES? I ASK THIS OVER AND OVER. I AM SOUTHERN BAPTIST AND BELIEVE GOD HAS HIS REASONS FOR EVERYTHING HE DOES,AND EVEN THOUGH I KNOW HE DOES NOTHING TO PUNISH US, I REALLY FEEL AS IF I'M BEING PUNISHED AND HAVE TO MUCH TO CARRY.THE WAY MY SON PASSED IS SO HORRIBLE, I SEE IT 24/7, ALL DEATHS ARE BAD IN THEIR OWN WAY, BUT THIS IS JUST SOMETHING I CAN'T DEAL WITH AND KEEP ASKING MYSELF WHAT IF?? WHAT IF I HAD CALLED HIM AT 1PM ON 10/21/2010 WHEN I THOUGHT ABOUT HIM, HIS ACCIDENT WAS AT 1:10PM, WOULD I HAVE POSSIBLY DELAYED HIM 2 OR 3 MINUTES? HE DROVE A SLEEPER FLAT BED AND WAS LOADED WITH TREATED LUMBER, HAD COME FROM FL TO HALEYVILLE AL, 1 1/2/ MILES FROM HIS DELIVERY, AND THIS 73 YR OLD WOMAN FROM INDIANIA TRAVELING SOUTH HIT HIM HEAD ON. HE CAME AROUND A SHARP CURVE AND THERE SHE WAS ALL THE WAY IN HIS LANE. HE HIT HIS BRAKES AND HAD 22' SKID MARKS, WHERE THEY HIT . HIS TRUCK JACK KNIFED AND SHE HIT HIM RIGHT UNDER HIS SEAT, OF COARSE RIGHT IN THE FUEL TANK. HE HAD JUST FUELED 10 MINUTES PRIOR 150 GALLONS. THE TRUCK BLEW UP, HE WENT OFF THE SHOULDER ON HIS SIDE, SMALL EMBANKMENT, TRAVELED ABOUT THE DISTANCE OF THE RIG AND HIT 2 TREES ABOUT 5 ' IN DIAMETER HEAD ON. HE BURNT IN HIS TRUCK FOR 3 HRS BEFORE THEY COULD REMOVE HIS BODY. I PRAY TO GOD EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY THAT THE EXPLOSION AND IMPACT TOOK HIM INSTANTLY, THINKING OF HIM BEING STUCK IN THAT TRUCK BURNING IS DRIVING ME INSANE. THE WOMAN WAS KILLED INSTANTLY ALSO.OF COARSE THE SMALL TOWN NEWS PAPER TOOK PICTURES OF THE BURNING, BLAZING TRUCK, PUT ON FRONT PAGE AND INTERNER, BEFORE I WAS EVEN CONTACTED, AND BEING A MOTHER OF COARSE I HAD TO SEE THEM, NOW THEY ARE PERMANENTLY ETCHED IN MY MIND, THEY ALSO STATED THE DRIVER WAS STILL IN THE TRUCK FOR 3 HRS WHILE BURNING BEFORE THEY COULD RECOVER HIM, PEOPLE ARE SO THOUGHTLESS AND NO COMPSSION, DID THEY NOT REALIZE THERE WAS A FAMILY THAT WOULD SEE THESE? OF CORSE BUT IT WAS A DOLLAR IN THEIR POCKET!! A LOT OF PEOPLE THINK THESE TRUCK DRIVERS ARE ALL CRAZY AND DANGEROUS, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU SEE ADDS ON TV, WRONGFUL DEATH CLAIMS, IF YOU HAVE BEEN HIT BY 18 WHEELER, WHAT ABOUT THE TRUCKERS WHO ARE DOING THERE JOB AND SOME IDIOT LIKE THIS IS NOT PAYING ATTENTION? THERE ARE SO MANY ACCIDENTS INVOLVING BIG RIGS, AND PROBABLY MOST  OF THE TIME IT IS THE CARS FAULT, MOST PEOPLE PULL OUT IN FRONT OF THEM AND DON'T REALIZE THEY CAN'T STOP THESE LOADS ON A DIME. I AM SO .....................MAD BECAUSE MY SON HAD TO LOOSE HIS LIFE BECAUSE OF SOMEONE NOT PAYING ATTENTION.I HAVE SO MUCH HURT AND HATE BUILT UP INSIDE ME, I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO EXPLODE. I AM MAD AT GOD FOR LETTING THIS HAPPEN, AND EVERYDAY IT GETS WORSE, THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TIME MAKING IT BETTER. THE ONLY WAY TIME WILL MAKE IT BETTER IS IF IT BRINGS MY SON BACK..MY OLDEST SON HAD JUST RETURNED 1 MONTH PRIOR FROM KANDAHAR AFGHANISTAN FROM RECOVERING FALLEN SOLDIERS AND GETTING THEIR BODIES READY FOR THEIR LOVED ONES, TO COME HOME AND HAVE THIS NIGHTMARE HAPPEN. OUR WHOLE FAMILY IS AT A LOSS, THE HOLIDAYS WERE HORRIBLE AND NOW HIS BIRTHDAY IS FEB 12. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME AND MY FAMILY, NO PARENT SHOULD EVER HAVE TO BURY THEIR CHILD, IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT.........PLEASE TELL ME HOW I COME TO TERMS WITH THIS WHERE I CAN DRIVE UP THE INTERSTATE AND SEE A SLEEPER FLATBED W/O HAVING PANIC ATTACKS, I CALL HIS CELL AND HOME PHONE CONSTANTLY JUST TO HEAR HIS VOICE. I DON'T WANT TO GO ANYWHERE, BE AROUND PEOPLE, TALK TO ANYONE, I JUST WANT TO DIG A HOLE BESIDE HIS DAD, GENE IS ON THE OTHER SIDE, AND JUST PULL THE DIRT IN ON ME... AND WHERE ARE ALL OF YOUR SO CALLED FRIENDS AFTER THE FUNERAL IS OVER..?? EVERYONE ELSE'S LIFE GOES ON LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED AND THAT KILLS ME, I HATE TO SEE PEOPLE HAPPY OR LAUGHING. AND PLEASE DON'T TELL ME I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP, THEY HAVE BEEN TAUGHT TO TELL YOU WHAT THEY THINK YOU NEED TO HEAR, THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE, UNLESS THEY HAVE BEEN THERE, THAT'S WHY THIS GROUP IS WONDERFUL, WE HAVE ALL BEEN THERE.GOD TOOK MY HEART ALONG WITH MY SON.. THANKS FOR LISTENING..NANCY, ONE VERY HEARTBROKEN  MOTHER!!