I lost my son Joe on April 5, 2010 after he was at our house for Easter Sunday. A drunk driver took him from all the people who love him.

I was in total  and denial when the policemen asked my husband and I to sit down. Then said, "Your son passed." Maybe I thought it would go away. I didn't know how to handle it. But i did have friends on a computer soap net site. It was were I would communicate with fans of a soap I watched since the first day it aired on channel 2. The name is the "Young and the Restless." I had always encouraged people on soap net and then they were there for me.

It has come in waves and I would scream and cry for hours on end. I do still have tears and am touched at different times by one thing or another. I know my son Joe would want me to continue improving myself by learning and being involved. I did continue being the publicist for the garden club that I belong to. Then this year the president asked me to be membership. Happy to say I got 4 new members in November. More potential members will follow this year.

Tonight I am going to the town hall to be sworn in once again as a member of the Senior Center Advisory Board. I was on the board last year. I feel that I took the place of a lovely woman who was a member until she took sick and passed. Maybe next year the Mayor of our town will save me some time and next year I'll get sworn in for 3 years instead of just 1 year.

It's rather cold out and I am going to dress warm.

You're not alone I felt so sorry for you when I read that speaking to your daughter Candace.

Your daughter didn't mean to hurt herself of anyone she just thought it would help. I did that one time when I was so stressed and took a pill that belonged to my first husband. I had some time waking when I had to take care of my baby Joey. I was sleeping while I feed and changed him. I would say it was pure luck and being overweight that may have helped. Sounds crazy but sometimes a little weight does the body good. I'm not overweight now but that is many years ago.

I have to go now but I'll be back to read the rest of the posts. Keep your chin up.

With Warm Regards,

Barbara