We went to a revival last night..just hoping it would help. It didn't. All around me people were smiling and praising God, and I guess I'm not ready for that yet. I felt angry at them!!
My daughter went to the cemetary where he is buried, and there was a cigarette butt put on his grave...as if he were smoking it!! THAT has me so upset. He smoked, and someone went there and did that..how disrespectful to US, and to Chad. I want him to rest in Peace!! I'm just so angry. I wonder if I should have his ashes removed from there. I don't know what to do.
Any thoughts? Because I honestly can't think right now..I feel like I'm going to pass out any minute. There was also a beer poured on his grave!! He had been a drinker, but had stopped cold turkey, and was all about "God." What in the world is happening??? I cried my eyes out when my daughter told me this.