Hi Candace, I read your post and felt your emotions through your writng...I wish there was something I can say to alleviate those things that are so painful to us, namely....loosing a love one - yet - just being able to express our inner most feeling does help and to exchange those feelings with those who share like experiences. I am wishing you a healing heart and know that our Heavenly Father is aware of all of our pain. My pain comes and goes and sometimes I just feel empty. My cherished memories sometimes enable me to look back with a smile and know that I can always replay such beautiful stories to myself and those that I trust. Please enjoy the coming week knowing that all of our hearts are in the process of healing...
Thanks Melinda, I still can hear my husband say to me "Bob didn't make it" as I walked into the emergency room expecting to see my son .He was 35 and died suddenly, how horrible it had to be for you too, to lose a daughter at 30. My God how did you get through this ? I'm going on auto pilot and pretending to live knowing good and well , I'd rather not be living.
At 10:49pm on September 29, 2017, MarieBlack said…
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. And the entire situation I pray you find comfort in you grief. Please know that God is MORE concerned than you think. I pray strength and healing each day for you and your grandchildren. Hang in there, it will get better. Love Marie
Tony was 42. Engaged to be married to a lovely girl. We were starting to plan a wedding. Then all of a sudden we had to plan a funeral. I will never get over the shock of it!! As far as I knew he was in good health. Never any cardiac problems. But, he had a sudden heart attack. And living in a small country American Samoa. There was not very good emergency care available. Since I am a retired nurse, I will always believe he could have been saved if he was here !! But, I am coming to accept that it was out of my hands!! I just hope and pray every day that I will be with him again someday! Peace to you at this time of the year when we all feel so much grief. Merry Christmas. To celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. The only way to our beloved children.
Thank you Melinda for remembering Tonys love for the Dolphins. Every time I watch them play I cry through the whole game. I just wish they could win once in a while!!! Tony was always for the underdog. He was that kind of guy. I do miss him so much. As I know you miss Candace. Please enjoy her children. They are her. I wish Tony had a chance to have a child for me to love. But it did not work out that way. Peace.
I'm so sorry for all you have been going through, it's hard enough for me to deal with the death of my wife I can't imagine having to deal with a daughter, brother and friend also. My Prayers will be with you.
Thank you Melinda. That was his last picture. It was a selfie he took on this IPad. As far as wailing is concerned, I do that silently every day. I don't think we'll get past it, we'll walk along side it. Your picture of Candace is beautiful.
Melinda, I am so sorry about your brother. I can only imagine what you are feeling during this time. Especially this time of year.... I know you have good memories of both Candance and your brother...please know its okay to cry and its okay to smile as you think about pleasant thoughts....God is collecting all our tears...(Psalms 56:8)
Hi Melinda, I've read your posts and one of us is off with the dates about our children. My son Joe left us April 5, 2010 this year on April 5, 2015 marks 5 years. Your daughter Candice left 4 days after my son Joe.
I've been reading the posts but restrain from posting for a number of reasons. However, it's obvious and I've noticed that you are doing better. You have been holding up one of the members and doing your best to help when you can. May Our Lord God in Heaven continue to light your path.
I understand your feelings. I am missing my Tony so much today. It's just one of those days when it hits me so hard, I will never touch him, or talk to him , or hear his special laugh again. I pray every day for The Lord to take me to him. Much love to all of you that has lost your child. The most pain anyone can ever feel. Hugs to all Renee.
Melinda, I understand what you're saying about getting confused with all the religions. The best thing is to believe in God. However, I do like to watch and listen to Joel Osteen. He doesn't really speak about religion just quotes some things from the bible. And he tells personal stories and is inspiring as well as uplifting. He's so positive and gives good direction such as this week. He said to ask God to anoint us in all areas of our life each and every day. But be specific as to what and who you want to be anointed. Starting with yourself. It's a good feeling. I don't know if you have ever seen him but he is on Sunday morning channel 5 channel 7 and other stations as well. Check those stations between 9am and 9:30am.
Good Luck. And May you be anointed by God in feeling good today.