Today is a bad day for me. All the feelings you described I also feel and time doesn't seem to make any difference. I miss my husband so much. I'm in a situation where both my children live far from me so I don't even have their support except for phone calls. I feel so completely alone at times even though my friends try to keep me busy. It's just not the same it never will be. I also am on anti anxiety medication which I only take if it gets really bad. Sleep is optional for me. My family that is near by doesn't even bother to check in with me which only adds to my anger. My son tells me that I need to forgive them because the anger is only hurting me. He's right and I am trying but it's not easy seeing couples leading normal lives when ours were torn apart in a day.
I pray for you and for all of us that have endured this pain.
Thank you Elvira for the kind words. I am so very sorry for your loss and only someone that has gone through what we have would understand. I ask myself why him everyday but there's never an answer. Some people say God had a plan. I don't believe thats true because the God I was brought up to worship and trust would not hurt anyone. In my case it was a reckless driver not God that took my husband from me.
I so understand what you are going through. Going to work is just a motion I go through each day and somedays its more difficult to concentrate than others. I see a therapist once a week and with her help I manage to get through another week. Without her help I don't know if I could. This is something you might consider doing if you aren't already.
Try to think of your chldren and how happy they make you. This may help a little.