Hi Joanne, I am so sorry to hear about your son. I don't know if you feel the same as I do, but I keep thinking that I wish I would have kept him prisoner in his room, or sat on him, done anything different that he would still be alive. He was healthy and wonderful and I think this was such a wasted way to go! He could still be alive today, if only he would have gotten thru this mess. I keep thinking "if only" I had one more hour with him and could talk to him. I'm so mad that drugs took his life, he was so much more than that. He was only doing them for such a short while, he asked me for help because he hated it, I put him in rehab, but still, in the end, it took his life. Please share with me what happened with your son and I can tell you more. I wasn't prepared for this and don't really know how to handle it but I am finding that it is getting a bit easier with time. The grief is still like waves that roll in and out. Cameron was also the love of my life, he was my baby and we had a wonderful, close relationship. HE was so loving.