I just read your letter to me. Thank you, you made me feel better. Last night i had a dream Jimmy and I were fighting. It was sooo real, I wanted to cry my eyes out but with the other 3 little one's i could not. Like most on this site and everywhere, I and lost and sad and searching for something to help. He was such a happy and great kid and wonder what was in his mind when he took his life. I also wonder why god did not send such a lost hurt boy back to his mom and dad and wonder if he tried it before and and god allready did give him another chance. My 8 and 11yr olds have had dreams and i just want every detail, anyway, Thank You.
Hi Del, Sorry I didn't write sooner. I read Your post to me and just cried My Eyes out because I Knew that You Are Totally Right. How am I going to be able to see My Son's name on the Memorial Headstone and Have a "Happy" Birthday Party for Danny. Well it has taken some time and I have struggled with the idea but I have decided to go through with it. He was killed on his Birthday and I know that My own Birthday that just passed was Another Worst Day of My Life due to thinking.. "Even if I laid in bed All Day and Had My Arm Sawed off it would still be a Better Birthday then Danny had.". No Doubt ... Anyway with All that said I decided to go a head with the Birthday/Memorial Party. I know lots of people in Lots of Bands that would Play, I know the People that do Fire Shows "Ohio Burn Unit" they spin fire, blow fire, hula hoop with fire, spin fire and just put on a Very Fun Show and another Very Good Friend of mine Welcomed me to use his 20 Acres which is only 1 mile from the Cemetery and 1/4 mile from My House. The photo that I attached was taken at Nelson Ledges Quarry Park in Ohio right after he died. That photo will be engraved across the whole front of Danny's Memorial Stone with his name Engraved in the Water. I am going to be Surrounded by Love and Love Will Get Me Through This.. Thank You for Helping me look and figure out how to deal with All A
THIS IS DEL ROGERS--HI TO ALL THAT TOOK TIME TO READ WHAT WAS POURING FROM MY HEART OVER THESE PAST NEARLY 7 MONTHS NOW - FROM LOSING OUR PRECIOUS SON RYAN ! I HAVE JUST WRTITTEN A LONG LETTER IN RESPONSE TO ALL OF YOU - BUT IT DISSAPEARED & I DON'T KNO WHERE IT WENT - SO YOU MAY ALL RUN ACROSS IT & YOU MAY NOT - BUT I PRAY EACH ONE OF YOU ARE DOING BETTER- AS I AM SOME BETTER - BUT KNO WE'LL NEVER GET OVER SUCH A GREAT LOSS !! I JUST FOUND SOME OF YOUR RESPONSES & I SOOOO THANK EACH ONE OF YOU - I FEEL WE ARE CLOSE FRIENDS !!! GOD BLESS US ALL - THAT WE CAN KEEP ON GOING FOR OUR OTHER LOVED ONES !!!! HUGS TO EACH ONE OF YOU !!! WE MUST BE STRONG !!!!
Thank You for the kind words. You are such a Awesome person. It's is nice to know that someone cares. It is so hard dealing with the loss of My Son Danny. I am scared to death about his upcoming Birthday (6 months a way). The only way I think that I will make it through that day is if someone puts me in a induced coma. For Real. One idea that I had was to maybe unvale Dannys Headstone on his Birthday with some Family and friends but My Sons Dad has not put .10c on Dannys Headstone so I am going to have to find a way to pay his half too so I can make this happen. If I do somehow get this together I think it will the best thing to do that day and share Fun Stories about Danny. How Messed up can this be on My Sons Birthday he ends up with a headstone. We were going to go shopping for Dannys Birthday on Monday (the day after his Birthday) but of course he Never made it Home and so for his Birthday I bought him cloths to wear in his Casket. I HATE this SOOOO MUCH!!! I'm Sorry, I am Freakin out. This Is NOT RIGHT. My Birthday is April 13th and I REALLY don't think I am going to be able to Stand that day At All Either. I feel So Much for you also. Your Son was taken from you only 4 days before My Son was taken from me. It does Not get easier. I'm sure that we are both doing better then week one or week two but at least during week one and week two I still didn't believe it and now I know for sure I will Never get the pleasure of seeing My Son at least in this life. My Son did not have any children but part of me wishes that he did so I can at least have an extention of My Child to Hug and hold. I feel for You in so many ways. I know that your pain is deep due to the way your son died. I wish that I could do Something to ease Your pain if only a little bit. (((((((((((HUG-DEL ROGERS))))))))))
I'm sorry about your loss. It is so sad that he had 3 children that he left behind. My heart aches for you and them. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my son. I miss him so much. He was my rock. I find it hard to believe that he killed himself. Too many things don't connect. His birthday is next month I'm already thinking about that. Just know that you are not alone, a lot of people are dealing with this, we should not be burying our children, they should be burying us.
Hi Dell, I have a candle lit all day every day for my Son, I get the tall big candles in a jar at the dollar store and they last about 3 days...I feel better having one lit at all times, And I dont know why that is.
((((((HUGS TO YOU DELL!)))))))
thank you that is what gets me through sometimes knowing that he is not suffering anymore..caden was a special needs child,he just began to walk when he was 1 and a half and he didnt talk yet but i know that he is in gods arm and i look forward to the day i see him again..i am so sorry for your loss
Hi Del, thanks so much for your encouragement. Believe me thats all exactly what I am trying to do "Give it to God" but, for me at this moment it's easier said than done. No matter because I continue towards getting closer to the Lord little bit more each day. I already feel better today than I did yesterday. I also want to express to you how sorry I am for your Great loss. Jasmin also left me the Gift of a Beautyful 12 year old Grandaughter and she was 30 when she passed. With that similarity alone we are both blessed. I like very much your conviction, dedication and boldness from everything I read from you thus far. I can only hope to be there one day. Once more I deeply sympathize with you and feel for you & yours in this time of Grief. Truly, Roberto.
hi Del, thank you for the comment and for sharing your story about your son, im so sorry for your loss. they say we (parents who have lost a child) are the strongest souls. God beleives we will pass this and we will be in heaven with our babies in glory for eternity one day. its the only thing that keeps me going to know god is waiting for me with my Philip. i feel bad for people who dont beleive in life beyond this cause then they just think thats it that once there child is gone they will never see them again, that must be an awful feeling. anyway i just pretend Philip is away on vacation and ill see him again. and in all reality he is just away for right now just as your son is. God Bless you and your family and everyone who has lost someone they love. best wishes-jonnell
I am so sorry for your loss, I can't say I know how you feel because I have not lost a child, however I have lost love ones and I can feel your pain. Just to give you some encouragement from God's word the bible, in the book of Ecclesiastes 9:5 it saids" For the living are conscious that they will die; but as for the dead, they are conscious of nothing at all". It helps us to see that the dead are unconscious, as if they are sleeping. So instead of you thinking of your son as being cold and scared you could have some piece in knowing he is just sleeping, waiting for God's great day, when he will be resurrected as indicated in the Bible @ John 5:28, when Jesus speaks of a resurrection. Your son is in God's memory and the provision for a resurrection of the dead is a magnificent expression of God's Love and Kindness.
I hope this helps you some. Please if you need to talk do not hesitate to email me.
No sweetie you are NOT alone in thinking of your precious child as cold and lonely. My darling son of 21 years was tragically shot down and killed and the ignorant police think it was a suicide despite a LOT of evidence to the contrary. I worry about him still....it's only been 2 months since he was found the Sunday morning after Thanksgiving. It has been horrible but I try to think of him in heaven and cared for and loved by the Lord instead of in that cold awful place. Peace be with you...it comes in fits and spurts but I pray the Lord will comfort you.
You are definitely not alone. Even though we had our son Chad's body was cremated. I think the same thing. We buried most of his ashes; kept out some to sprinkle on a ball field or Lake Winnipesaukee when the time is right, but I always think of him being cold when I visit the cemetary in this weather. I will leave shortly to cover his marker (until his headstone comes in) because I don't want his name covered up or items people have left for Chad. You are not crazy. This has been 5 months for my family and I and somedays you literally feel like you are falling apart. I pray for all of us and for our children who are not "cold" but who live on with the strength of Jesus and through us. Lisa
please believe that you are not crazy, unless we all are! ha ha. i think the same thing of my son philip, he is in a mausaleum but i think the same thing sometimes, of him being cold and scared and lonely in there. but then i realize its not true and make myself stop, literally make myself, its not easy but in order to not go insane i have to. you are not alone, we all think we are crazy at times.
Hello Del yes I did have visits from heaven . Right now I am going though not only my sons death but also some problems with his father. Well anyway I know my son would not like what is happening because he didn't really have much of a relationship with his dad well today I have what I believe is a breakthrough . After that I went and took a nap and I had another dream of my son in fact he came to me 3 times and all he did was smile when I woke up I knew I was doing the right thing . I want you to know that I am also praying for you and your family
Hi Del, i have been in a fog lately, and i can't seem to get myself out of it...i guess we all have those times...i am going to talk to a minister this evening because i have so many unanswered questions that i need to know..i am hoping he can help me. i have been dreaming alot lately, more so than ever. i am still so sad, and broken hearted that it is an effort to get through the day, my faith has been badly shaken, and i desperately need it back in my life such as it is..i hope that you have the help, and support that you need through these times..i am so sorry that so many have passed in your family, you need to get strength from each other, and we all need to feel blessed that we had the children, even for such a short time..i know i will see my Robby again, and i will give him the biggest hug i ever gave him, and never let him go...you take care, and bless you, and your family..tammy E