Hi Miss Evette sorry haven't been on here in a VERY long time. Thinking of you lately wondering how you were. I have not forgotten you, even though it's been so long since we've spoken well I hope to hear from you soon!
John 5:28,29 "All those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice... And come out!"
I wanted to contact you to say hello, and to let you know that I still cry for my Karl these days. Some days are better then others but today got the best of me. I was doing some cleaning and I ran across poem that my Karl use to say to me and I just want to share it with you, hear it goes I cry with tears as I type this.
When I am gone, release me, let me go I have so many things to see and do. You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears, just be happy that we had some years. I gave you my love, you can only guess how much you gave to me in happiness, I thank you for the love you each have shown, but now it's time I traveled on alone. Do grieve a while for me if you must then let your grief is comforted by trust. It's only for a while that we must part, so keep our memories within your hearts. I won't be far away, for life goes on. So if you need me, call and I will come. Though you can't see or touch me Ill be near. And if you listen with your heart you will hear, All of my love around so soft and dear. When you must come this way alone, I'll greet you with a smile and say "Welcome Home"
Hi Evette im sorry for you're loss.my name is Alicia i lost my son on 7/12/09.my son had a girlfriend of two years. But she found another boyfriend. I think she already married him and i think haa she already forgotten my son. What can u tell me.do u think she forgot him.anyway im glad for her.she's young. Well i miss my son everyday. I was just reading you're post.don't know if you're still here on this site. God bless you
..ALICIA JESSE'S MOM
Hello Miss Evette I have not forgotten about you not a day has gone by that I didnt say " I have to reply to her still!" It's been crazy. As the bible says "time and unforeseen occurrence befall us alI".. I am so glad to hear you are not hiding from us anymore. Jehovah has definitely seen a light in you to draw you to him and his organization. I'm glad u were able to attend the memorial. What congreation does the lady attend that speaks to you? I wonder if i know her, who knows small world right? Hole you are doing well! Did you attend the special talk which discussed how bible principles can help us cope with our issues, many har already heard that talk however our in this Sunday
Thank you so much for your kind words. It's so good to talk to people who knows what I'm going thru coz not everyone understands. For them its like "Its been almost 6 months already and life goes on" and yes it does but then for me I just live one moment at a time. I do not plan or think about tomorrow. I don't even wana think about him coz I'm still so angry at him for leaving me the way he did. The last memory he left me with the day I found him is all I can think about so yeah it's hard. But what can one do but to try and get thru each day as it comes....
okay i don't know if you still have my phone number but just in case here it is again 1-612-275-4336 i will look for your call. I will be in church Sunday from 11:00am to 12:30 then i will be on my way home so give me some time. love your big sister kenyada
Evette hello honey, how are you doing i don't hear much from you these days. i am okay at the moment. I have not been at the cemetery in a few weeks its better for me if i don't go as much, all i do is cry anyway. its coming up for my karl to be gone 6mo's that is crazy i just can't get my head to focus that my karl have been that long from me. i think that i'm going crazy but then again my karl lives in me. i am sorry i did not mean to say that i feel like i am going crazy i just miss him so and i don't know what to do. i am getting ready to move to a 55 and older building in the sub of minnesota i will be happy about that i don't like living in the city i like living far away. i miss you toooooooo Evette what is going with you, how come i have not heard from you, you have got to be still hurting of your honey tooooooo right tell me about him. i love you take care you sis Kenyada
Hello Sister this is kenyada and thank you so much for sending me your message. i went to group tonight and i did not want to talk about my Karl i just sat there thinking about him. they showed movies on loved one's that had passed on and that made me board i was ready to go as soon as i got there. i don't know sis this class or group may help me but it did nothing for me last night. i am okay today which is 7/21/2010 so far. i wished that i was close by you i just feel the need to be close to someone that cares for me. for some reason i feel left out of the whole world. something happen to me and i want to tell you but its to much wording so i guess i have to wait to see you. well sis you take care and please don't take so long before we talk i know that life goes on but remember how we both got together and not by a Hi yell that's what i'm saying. love kenyada in minneapolis, mn
Hello my Friend, how are you doing. one day at a time for me. for two weeks I had not cried but yesterday my tears started again and today I cried this morning so one day at a time for me. I thought that I could do this on my own but little did I know so I am interring into a grieving group at church 7/20/2010 and I hope I will get something out of it, girl I tell you my guts hurt for my Karl and its the same feeling I just miss him so. I keep telling myself to wake up cause I really think that I am sleeping I don't want to except that my Karl is gone, I feel so depressed at times, and some times I just want to give up. Well you tell me what is going on with you I want to know. I love you Kenyada
Hello My Friend oh i wish that I was there for you. that was a nice thing for you to plant lots of flowers on your Kenny gave I am sure that he loved them. You know I feel this closest with you as well, its a closeness that aloud s me to cry when I want to, it aloud me to feel sad as well as happy and most of all it gives me freedom with you. I hate to say this but I have a sister that was there for me when my Karl passed in my hands and the moment I put him in the ground she went away I suppose that she felt that I was ok, when I was not I don't get calls anymore and she hardly comes by to see me, but for you to come into my life as you have, makes me feel as though you are my real sister, now don't get me wrong my God has a way in closing one door and opening up another and I truly believe that he did not want me to cry about my real sister coming to see about me so he closed that door and open another door with you on the other side I am very sharp and I believe that's what happen I feel more close to you then my own sister sorry it is what it is. I want to send you the lay out of my Karl and I headstone but I am unable to send it to you on Legacy so if you have another email send it to me at email@example.com and I can send it to you I want to share it with you its almost finished the print is finished but the sanding and coloring in not done yet but soon. I want us to stay together Evette I am so happy to have met you I am a loner and I don't get to meet a lot of peoples I like it like that its peaceful and I don't have to see anyone unless I want to again it is what it is. I have been hurting all day with the pain in my neck I have an apointment to see a doctor again this thursday the 6 @ 9:40am I am sure that they are going to want to cut me which is not good I don't have anyone to take care of me my boys hardly come around or hardly call me but I don't like pain so something has to give. if you were next door I know that you would take care of me. any way I am going to go now so that I can sit down and relax I will talk to you soon. Love Kenyada
Hello my friend no I am not doing ok, I started crying to day which is 5/3/10 I just miss my Karl. I will be all right its just going to take me some time to find my way. I had a great talk with my God and I just thank him so much for coming into my life to show me the way, to give me a knew life to give me knew eyes to see to give me a knew smile to feel good about myself. I talked to him out loud so that he could hear my pain. I know that he loves me, he had brought me and my Karl a long ways in life without him I could not have made it this far. I have faith, and I love God, and I am very patient and I know that he will put me on the right path. I am noticing that my tears are getting better I cry but not as long and then some times my cry is long. well how are you doing? I hope that God will bring some light to you as well, I pray that God will being love to you again with someone that will treat you like a queen and that will be proud of having you as their partner I know that he will just be patient you just wait and see. well I need to go to bed now we will talk soon, you take care and keep your head up as I will do. Love Kenyada
Thank you for your comment. You have my sympathy for your loss, as well. Christine was young, only 27 years old, which makes her death so much harder for me to accept. She had deep pain, and her needs in relation to that pain were more than any one person could provide solace or relief. I tried, but was unable; despite the strength of my love; to give her all she needed; to show her that life could be worth living. We had 3 years together, and I am feeling a lot of anger at the unfairness of it all; to feel something so good and so powerful, only to lose it... Thanks, again, for your kind words; and for sharing your own experience with me.
as a matter fact today started out with getting my hair braided. i sat in braiding chair from 9am-8pm i will never do that again. the lady braided my hair very small that's what took so long. I came home my neck was hurting so bad. i had some supper and took a pain pill and laid down when i started crying for my Karl not being here to eat with me. well so much for my sadness. thank you for thinking about me i will pray for you tonight before i go to bed. you have a good night till we talk again God Bless you
okay you have a great night too, and you are right me and my Karl did make music/memories together for 36 years that is a long time to be with one person but the old saying is when you find him you will know it, and I knew it the first time I saw him 36 years ago. going to bed now
Hello my Friend thank you so much for sending me this message. I am sorry that your computer was sick, I hope that it is up and running. yes you are right this slipped disk is giving me a fit. I try so hard not be move my neck and at the same time it is hard not to move my neck. for the most part I am okay. I started to cry today but I held my tears my tears still come but I have notice that if I am doing something my tears don't come as much its when I am doing those things that I done for my Karl and I now do for me is when I cry but my point is that I am not trying to get away from the things that I done for my Karl and when my body wants to cry I let it do just that. I am sorry how about you, are you okay you just do what you need to do and don't worry about anything else its natural and it is what it is. I have pushed it all day I need to get in the shower and relax until we meet again take care. Kenyada