I accepted your friend request, talking about my beautiful son is very difficult, and painful as you well know... our children are so cherished, losing a child is a nightmare, shock, trauma. This will be the two tear month 4/30/2009 I lost my son. I am still just grief stricken. I try to keep my focus on God, and the faith that my son rests in his arms. I am sorry for the loss of your precious daughter... we all share the same pain...
Hi, Garry: I am so sorry for the loss of your baby girl. My baby girl was 44 when she died in 2007. Now her husband of only 5 years is in the hospital after a triple bypass and is on a ventilator. The ICU nurse said the prognosis is "good" but they will keep him on the oxygen support for 2-3 days. I don't think any parent ever fully recovers from the loss of a child. Ijust go through the days one at a time. I thank God for my 3 sons who take very good care of me.I don't go online very often to this site. It is just too sad.
Thanks Garry. I am here also. I am on here everyday I do more reading then I do comment. It's been 1yr and 6mos since Johnny was murdered but it still seem so unreal. I still wonder why he has not called me. The pain I feel still has not stopped. The tears come at will even with the medication. I can speak of the things he use to say and do without getting to emotional but It's all of the Nevers that get to me. He had dreams of having a family after Med school. He was doing his intern. Oh how proud I am/was of him. The young man that murdered my son is still in jail awaiting trail. I feel since he admitted to the crime why should he be given a trail. In my opinion he should have just went straight to the sentencing faves. I have forgiven Marlon Reason but I have not forgotten what he did.
The deaths of other family members was nothing like this. 7 months after loosing my son I lost my husband of 11 yrs. and it wasn't like this. I love my husband dearly. People forget I lost my husband and only speak of My Johnny. I do have 2 other children so I can't understand why I want to join Johnny so bad. I am so confused. I only leave home to go to the Doctor. I keep thinking that somewhere I have things twisted and Johnny will come here like he use to and say "Mama, what did you cook?" I find myself cooking food and storing it in the ice box until it's time to give it 2 the dogs because it has been in there to long.(Johnny didn't come get the left overs).If I don't cook then I feel if he come I have nothing in there for him to eat. My daughter moved to Atlanta shortly after his death because she couldn't deal with the thought of him not coming to her house. She's coping but my other son is so angry. He landed his self in jail the other day. He broke out the window on someone's vehicle. Now behind bars he realize he need to get help to cope with his lost. I felt I knew he was going to need help because they where so close.I didn't mean 2ramble.