How are you doing?? Its not easy I know to move on with life but life does go on and we too. My bro is gone now 2yrs and 7months and its so hard believe that he is really gone. I hope your family is keeping well and you too. Lots of love, Joanne.
Hi John I hope you are doing ok. I don't know the answers. each death is horrific in my opinion. death was not supposed to take our children life was. they had so much to offer... I am here with the same pain although slightly different. we have so much we have lost all our dreams and hopes and such a big part of life we have yet to live.... all without the most important part our children... there is sadness everyday. as i think about what happened. i don't like it. and sometimes i don't believe it but my mind takes me to the truth of it. and goes over and over and over it. he would not want this for me for he was always so free and happy.... and a doer. he loved the outdoors... i love him and know he loved me... i wish i wish.. but i cannot fix it take care carrie L
Hello John: I believe you, many people give up when the hurt gets to hard to handle, even strong young men. I have almost given up, many times, loss is hard to deal with, loss of our children & loss of health, both I am dealing with. Your son is with your wife, and you see them again, God is faithful & He keeps His promises. God bless.
Mr Taylor, Its me Joanne, who lost my Angel bro Chester. Thank you for your msg. Its still so hard for us and I know how you must be feeling too. just keep in mind that... “God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.” You cant blame yourself...you tried to be the best dad the way you thought was best...thats all we can do. God bless you. Lots of love, Joanne.
Hi John, I hope you get some communication, some dream with your beloved son as you want to.
As for me I was dreaming with my son looking at me, when I heard the phone ringing and I got the bad news. He came to me in a dream to say bye.
My best to you, John.
Hi John, I keep writing on the same subject - the loss of a loved one to suicide. I am sure the sufferings we go through are stepping stones for us to stand and to grow. Through them we have the chance to become a better person, we reinvent ouselves, we experiment a personal improvement, we find a reason to live. Whatever I am going through I always like to help others with a word of tranquility and peace - hope I am been able to do so.
Hi John I read all you wrote on the loss of your son and the same questions you make to yourself I made to myself regarding my son - what influence I had and what could I had done to prevent the unfortunate gesture. It seems to me suicide is a personal choice. Had I been responsible his death would never occurred. I am sure a family member cannot keep alive someone who is determined to die and we all did and said the best we knew with the information we had at that time.
Some months before loosing my son I had lost a grandson and prior to that I had lost my husband.
In the midst of all my pain I realized I must to get back on track for my own good and for the good of my other son, for my daughter, for my 4 grandchildren
Dear John: I live in Canada, I am an American Ind, raise Catholic, was a devout Catholic for years, on the question of suicide I have question the Church's teachings, & and have come to the conclusion, the Church doesn't know the answer, my answer is each death is different & treated in God's mercy, only God knows! If He allowed His baby to died at the hands of us, and said "He loves Me, why would he now condemn your baby." In Canada the various churchs are now paying over a Billion Dollars to natives their relgious members have violated, for physical, sexual abuse, etc. Jesus overturned tables in a religous temple because of hypocrisy, he doesn't like lies. I don't know your baby's story, or the reason he did what he did, nor am I qualifed to give one, but God's knows, and the God I believe in knows every thought that we have, and is qualfied to give the right answer, and He wanted to punish us, He would have started with the one's who hurt his baby, and moreover would not have let Jesus died for you & I. Grief hurts, I hate the pain, I lost my girl age 17 in 2005, she died from a rare sickeness & I watched her died from it in 29 days, I miss her even now, hold on, hold on, maybe someday we will both know. God bless.
Dear John, I too am a breaved parent. My husband and I lost our son, Casey on April 21, 2007. It took over a year to dream about my son as an adult (he was 28) when he died. He came to me twice in about 2 weeks to tell me that he was okay. I don't think it is that unusual. Sometimes I think that the dreams come sooner, sometimes later. Again I am so sorry about your son, it is something no parent should have to go through, although there are too many of us that have. God's blessings, Deb