I just read a post you placed in response to unexpected loss. My heart aches for you. I lost my father April 4, 2012 he died at work. It has been quite hard because I am a military spouse and we live across the country from my family. Soon we will be living overseas. I was recently looking for help with coping and came across stories like yours and it makes my greif seem unwaranted. I just want to extend my deepest sympathy to you. I wish I could somehow take your pain away even though i dont know you. Know that people here can relate and are willing to help. If you havent already looked into or tried greif counceling may help. Praying for you.
I cannot imagine what you must be going through. I have never lost a child. I lost my husband of 33 years in March 2011 and I know that pain. Sometimes it is so intense that my heart actually hurts. I've been through the blame game and being angry with everyone, including God. I don't know that the pain ever completely goes away, but it does get easier little by little. I do know that without the support of friends and family, I wouldn't have made it through the first week. And more importantly, without God, I wouldn't have made it at all. This experience has taught me many things. The one thing that has helped me most when I question why this happened is that God has shown me that His perspective is so much different than mine. While I consider it a tragic loss, He sees it as a victory because Glenn is home where he belongs. And out of about 400 people that attended his memorial service, 40-50 came to salvation in Jesus Christ. That is a victory! I share this with you to say that God always brings something good even out of the bad situations. It may be too soon for you to see yet, but it will come. And know that people overall are very ignorant when it comes to dealing with other people's grief. Many of them mean well; they just don't know what to say or do. You have come to the right place here. All of us have experienced a sudden loss and though none of us will know exactly what you are going through (each experience is unique) many of our stories are similar, we all deal with pain, and we are here as a friend and support to you. Cry when you need to cry, laugh when you can, and take each day a step at a time. I am praying for you! I hope to hear from you again. God bless!