I was sorry to read Donnie fell asleep in death. Someone you love has passed away, your heart will ache with sadness so don't be afraid to cry shedding tears appears to be a necessary part of the healing process Working through grief takes patience its only been less then 4 months just think you are used to having this person (Donnie) in your life and then their just gone grief is a normal way to mend. You may find that for a time your emotions will be somewhat unpredictable tears may flow without much advance warning be patient with yourself. The Bible assures us: “God is near to those that are broken at heart; and those who are crushed in spirit he saves.” (Psalm 34:18) may you find comfort in Donnies memories that are yours to cherish always