Well, sitting here watching the news. Feel very alone tonight. Do not always feel this way. Some nights I am good. Friday night my granddaughter is spending the night with me. Looking forward to that. Still trying to find the new normal for me. I am told this may take awhile to find a new normal for me without Terry. 

On June 27, 2014 my husband would leave after I came home from work for the mountains. My husband had a Hunting Cabin in the PA. mountains. It was not to be. Sadly, when I got to work I received a phone call from our Township's fire department they were taking Terry to the hospital as he called 911 could not breath. The EMTs arrived within 2 minutes and had to break in. He was gone. Heart attack, I have been amess ever since. I am seeing my family doctor and grief counselor twice a month.…