I'm sorry for not posting sooner to question. I am so new here and I'm reaching out and again sorry for the delay in answering your questions. Yes, my little brother was very sick. He was living under a bridge when he took his life. He was my younger brother, only 41 when he took his life. He was addicted to drugs and alcohol and as I mentioned he was living under a bridge. Everyday that goes by I think of how I could have helped him more and the guilt just eats away at me slowly. He was my baby brother and I live with this pain constantly. I am in therapy for other reasons and it does help to talk about it but I find there are days when noone or nothing can break the guilt cycle that I feel when I think of losing my most precious sibling~~
Hi Crystal and I am truly sorry for your loss I know it is hard to handle sometimes more than other times but somehow we get through it. thank you for your comments and I do take them to heart. I do want to say that it was my sister not my brother that passed and my husband with in two weeks of each other. my sister suffered with cancer for almost a year and my husband also with cancer for almost 3 months before they passed. Let me tell u that God has control of everything and one of them is death he decides when it is our time to go. But it still hurts a whole bunch of alot......
I thank God for the time he did give me with my sister and my Husband. What makes it hard is when I cry I don't have my sister to run to or when I cry for her I don't have my husband to comfort me. So I end up just sobbing like a baby in a little ball on my bed. Then I feel a little better and fall asleep. I hope things start to look better for u and I send Hugs and more Hugs to u.
THANKS CRYSTAL. I APPRECIATE THE HELP AND SUGGESTIONS ABOUT SUPPORT GROUPS. I WISH YOU PEACE. AND WE WILL BE OK WITH THE HELP OF OUR FRIENDS, DON'T YOU THINK?? SOME DAYS ARE JUST HARDER THAN OTHERS AND I WOULD SAY CHRISTMAS IS NOT A GOOD DAY RIGHT NOW, MAYBE NEXT YEAR WILL BE BETTER. BUT THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR HELP. WE ALL HAVE TO STICK TOGETHER BECAUSE THERE ARE SOME CRAZIES OUT THERE THAT JUST DON'T GET IT, NOT EVEN CLOSE TO GETTING IT. SANDY
Hello Crytal I got your email invitation to join your group and clicked accept. Let me know if you got my response. I appreciate your input. I don't have any plans to be a facebook member but am looking forward to the email discussions.
Thank you so much for your response. Its so hard going through this.My brother was always the one to say its going to be ok and i still hear those words from him I just cant belive them right now.I hurt so bad that I cant get it out. Its so hard to explain but I know you know how I feel .I m sorry for your loss also and Im here for you to.
Crystal I am so sorry, and thank you so much. Tommy was 32. We don't know as of yet what killed him and for right now I am okay with that. I feel like my insides are on the outside and I hate how vulnerable this makes me feel. I will def check out the info you sent.
Thank you for your kind words, I do and will take on board what you have said, I am spending as much time with his yound childern which reminds me of when we was children I am exhausted and I will go on the site that you recommended, its good to know that I am able to meet people like you whos been through the same situation as me. many many thanks.x